I hate myself.

Chatted with Ysabelle just now, told her about my problems.

Felt better but i hate myself sia. I hate being paranoid and

stuff. I wished i was a robot, so i wouldn't give a fuck about

life. I cherish people and things around me, but sometimes

i guess it's a bad thing. If people doesn't cherish you, why

the fuck do you have to cherish them ? It's because they

mean something to you, that's why. But the feeling of being so

good to someone yet it doesn't get noticed or worse, make use

of it sucks. Sometimes i wish to get away from this place,

somewhere quiet so i can relax. I want a day that doesn't

have to depends on people's mood. I wish i was never born.

But i know i'd regret not meeting you. Sometimes, people

tries to bring you down. They crush your self esteem.

I wish i could blast the music so loud that i wouldn't hear

those hurtful things that people are gonna say. F-M-L

(This post isn't referring to anyone ok, please dont make wild guesses.)