Now i'm picking up all the pieces.

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You open your heart to someone, told them everything. Treated them

as a part of you but they feed you with bullshit. Sometimes, it's best if

we don't open our hearts to anyone at all, so whatever they say or do

wouldn't hurt us. I guess that's why some people build walls around em

to protect themselves from being hurt. I used to think that if i treated

people like how i wanted to be treated, i will. But i was wrong, i guess.

Maybe because this is what the world really is. They just use you to

get what they want. I also don't believe in karma anymore, i did good

things but bad things still happen to me anyway. I'm really very tired

inside out. I am tired of pretending that everything's alright even

though it's not. I'm tired of chasing people, begging them not to leave.

I'm tired of not being able to sleep at night, turning over and over.

I wish i would just disappear somehow or get hit by something real

hard so that i would forget all the bad memories. Well, i don't want

to crap so much. No one listens anyway. G.o.o.d.b.y.e.