I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or

how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

School was alright today, lessons weren't that boring as semester 1's.
Took 183 to cityvibe with Benedict, Stacey and Yingkai after school.
We bought our food and ordered take-away. Walked to clementi
stadium and started eating. Ate till about 3pm and started to jog w/
Yingkai and Stacey around 3.30pm. Jogged till around 5pm and took
188 home. Stacey and Benedict accompanied to westmall before we
went home. Thanks. Went home after buying the things i needed.
Oh btw, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY TO ARYNNA LEE HUI YUN. :D
I'mma end this post now, will post again soon alright. Stay tuned.

I'm only asking this much.

Had an enjoyable day today after school with Benedict, Yingkai, Stacey,

Yixin and Jiali. Headed to Kopitiam at IMM for lunch and went to

jurong library to do our hmwk after that. Studied till 5pm and left for

jurong mrt station. We escorted yixin to her bustop and took cab to

westmall and went home. Laughed alot today, yingkai is damn funy.

I didn't saw this other side of her before, this was my first time seeing

her like this. LOL she was damn hyper with yixin. Jogging tmrw !

To all the people who still haven't got over it, please lah fuck off can.

Don't childish leh, why keep talking about it when it's already over.

But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me.

Well yeah, 4:30am and im not alseep. I did slept but i woke up at 3am,

tried to sleep but i couldn't. I don't wanna go school tmrw, im not

ready yet ! Alex coming over later i think cus we're gonna return our

laptops to each other. Most probably having a haircut later, hope i

don't screw it up though and im meeting yingning to try to fnish up

as much hmwk as i can. Listening to musics now, feeling so confused.

I haven't touched my hmwk and even the donation thingy plus my

mom's gonna turn into a beast later ! D: Oh, i am the luckiest kid on

earth. FML. I would thank anyone who'd offer to kill me.

-Have you ever loved someone you knew you couldn't love ? Doesn't

the feeling just sucks ? I want to be with you very badly. I wish you

knew that this was for you but how would you react ? This is the

very first time i felt this way, it's a strange yet warm feeling. I light

up everytime i see your message. I don't know, but is this right ?

I mean, liking you. Is it wrong ? Maybe just this once. I'll try-

I need you here right now, thank you.

Stayed over at arynna's yesterday, was mapling, blackshoting,

and chatting with ysabelle. I slept around 6am while mapling.

I didn't know i fell asleep sia, i was typing halfway and i fell

asleep. (Y) Woke up around 11am by alex's call. He didn't

came over to arynna's house. He mapled and blackshotted

awhile before he went swimming. Left arynna's house at

5pm and reached home at 5:10pm cus arynna's dad drove

me home. Might be going out with Arynna and Yingning

again later at night. Am also might be going out with grace,

peiqi, shermine and alex tmrw for movie. Not sure, LOL /:

Wtf lah, sister's being a bitch over here. Knn dog sia, nbcb.

( You're the one person i could never let go of . )

I hate myself.

Chatted with Ysabelle just now, told her about my problems.

Felt better but i hate myself sia. I hate being paranoid and

stuff. I wished i was a robot, so i wouldn't give a fuck about

life. I cherish people and things around me, but sometimes

i guess it's a bad thing. If people doesn't cherish you, why

the fuck do you have to cherish them ? It's because they

mean something to you, that's why. But the feeling of being so

good to someone yet it doesn't get noticed or worse, make use

of it sucks. Sometimes i wish to get away from this place,

somewhere quiet so i can relax. I want a day that doesn't

have to depends on people's mood. I wish i was never born.

But i know i'd regret not meeting you. Sometimes, people

tries to bring you down. They crush your self esteem.

I wish i could blast the music so loud that i wouldn't hear

those hurtful things that people are gonna say. F-M-L

(This post isn't referring to anyone ok, please dont make wild guesses.)

Feel it.

It sucks when the person whom you

cherishes doesn't cherish you as much.

I'll talk about yesterday first. Woke up at 1pm, bathed

and headed to alex's house. Played maple, audi etc and

had our lunch at the prata shop below alex's house. We

Left his house at 7.30pm and went to jurong to look for

tuition centres. Headed to IMM after that and had

ice kachang. (Y) Cabbed alex home because i was a

kind soul. Hahah went home slept at 10.30pm & woke

up at 11pm cus i couldn't sleep. Messaged alex that

i couldn't sleep and he asked me whether i wanna go

to yuhua's mac, cabbed there. Had supper there and

decided to ask Jiali to come too. We all then headed to

the playgraound near yuhua's mac. Started dancing,

lmao it was freaking funny. Sweated alot sia, left at

1am and accompanied alex home. Took cab from his

house with Jiali and headed home.

All we want is to love and be loved.

Somebody who could be there when i need someone to talk to.

Mapled with brother at around 1am++ and slept at 3am cus i

was tired. I slept till 4pm sia, hahah lol. Woke up and had my

brunch. It's already 5pm, time flies. I'm bored and i've got

nothing to do. I might train my maple account later, the one

that im sharing with my brother. Might be going out tmrw.

Not sure yet. School's starting next week sia, sian la. FML

But i'm gonna chiong my studies after school holidays so i am

not going online that often. Still finding tuition, maybe going

to the same tuition as brother. Yeah that's all, bye ! (:

I wish you the best in everything.

Hm all of a sudden, my house is so quite. LOL i have to admit

that when my brother not here sibei sian lah. Enjoyed myself

these past four days, sleeping late, telling jokes and playing

maple and blackshot together. School's starting next week &

i have yet to complete my hmwk. Jiayi, my hmwk is with

you ! Not enthu about going back to school at all lah, sian ttm.

I don't want to go to school, i hate going to school sia. /:

Never felt nothing in the world like this before.

Zomg did y'all read the newspaper or saw the news of a girl named

Dayna Sua went missing with her 19 y.o boyfriend ? Dayna's my

primary school friend which is a year younger than me. Yingning,

Juliana, Arynna and I were talking about her just now. Wondering

if she's safe and stuffs. Dayna, if you see this, come back soon !

We're all worried for you, especially Amanda and your parents. D:

Went lan with Alex and Jonathan @ aloha at 3:38pm. Played for

1 hr and went home. ------ currently at my house now, we're gonna

chiong maple cus i got a ringger. LOL yeah uhm that's all. Bye. :D

Used to be.

Woke up today @ 8am. Played blackshot and went out with jinhao and

co to sentosa for beach volleyball. Played till 7pm and headed home.

That's all. Sorry that my posts are getting lesser and lesser each day.

Never make someone who dislikes you for being who you are

change the way you really are. Just be yourself, be who you

are. Never be something that you're not cus that sucks.

I wished i never woke up from my dream.

Sorry i didn't update my blog for a few days alr. I was

kinda busy and lazy too. I have been going out for the

past few days. Went out with Grace and co yesterday

to sentosa for beach volleyball, i had fun there. Uhm,

met Alex and Jonathan at aloha @ 1pm and played lan

for 2 hrs. Headed to cityvibe after that to take a bite.

Jonathan left cus he needed to leave @ 4pm. So yeah,

currently with Alex now at clementi cc which is near

my aunt's house. Im gonna chiong maple when im at

home. Alright, that's all for today. Will post again :>

As high as souls can fly.

Hello people, good morning ! :D And yes, i haven't slept till now. Imma

go and sleep after i've blogged. Gonna talk about yesterday, 13/6/10.

Cabbed to Grace's house at 3pm and went to vivo to meet Jinhao, we

went to sentosa afterwards and played volleyball with Jinhao, Rickmond

and a few of jh's brother's friends. Played till 7pm+ and went to change,

we all went back to vivo for dinner at carl's junior. Trained home with

Grace after that. Meeting them again tmrw at sentosa. Beach volleyball ftw,

hahah lol. Not sure whether im going out today still cus im still not asleep

at this time. Might be meeting Peimian and co for a movie at vivo or

bowling with Benedict and co @ aloha (i think). FML, im broke already.

Left with a freaking 22 bucks only. D:

The inspiration.

Watched Karate Kid with Grace, Yixuan and Zulfadhli at westmall

@ 11:45pm. What else can i say ? The movie was f*cking awesome.

The girl that Jaden Smith likes in the movie is f*cking pretty too.

HAHAH she's hot. LOL :D I got inspired in the movie. Not gonna

elaborate though. Movie ended at 2:30am and slacked at mac's till

3:00am. We took our own cab home, and im gonna say this again.

Karate Kid is f*cking awesome ! :D

Take me away.

Didn't slept for the whole night yesterday ! I only slept at 8am this

morning. Yeah i know im awesome. Slept at 8am and woke up at

5pm, i dreamt that i was with a group of people killing zombies. :D

Lmao i also dreamt that before killing zombies, i was in a mall and

suddenly there were a few zombies chasing everybody. I didn't

have the energy to run fast because my leg was jelly-ish. LOL /:

But i somehow managed to survive. Might be going out with Grace

and co later, i dont know. Not going for band concert tmrw cus im

going malaysia for a day. Hope i'll enjoy myself when im there.

Edited at 9:33pm, watching Karate Kid with Grace and Yixuan,

HAHAH LOL IM EXCITED. I CAN'T WAIT. :D Movie @ 2345.

Slept at around 3am+ yesterday night, managed to wake up at 8am

but told Benedict that I wasn't going cus i was awfully tired. Continued

to sleep after that till 2pm. Has been a boring day, spending my time

at home. Just finished watching Diary Of The Dead, another movie

about zombie apocalypse. It's from the creators of Land Of The

Dead too. Watching Karate Kid with parents and sist tmrw, excited.

Zombie apocalypse.

I slept at 6:30am yesterday, hahah yeah. LOL just finished watching

Dawn of The Dead, another movie about zombie apocalypse. From

the creators of Land of The Dead, Dawn of The dead and a few more.

Currently chatting with Ryan about zombie apocalypse. I somehow

hope that there'll be a zombie apocalypse cus i smell adventure ! :D

I'm so excited now, lmao ! Btw, didn't go out today. Needa rest.

Zombie apocalypse ftw. Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot. \m/

It's all for moments like this.

Woke up from Benedict's call at 9am when he told me that he had

arrived outside my doorstep with Jonathan. Quickly went and took

a shower w/o heater while i asked my aunt to open the door. It has

been raining the whold day today and i was feeling very cold. Had

our breakfast at my house before we left for bowling @ aloha. We

bowled for 3 games. Jonathan didn't wanted to play so i played with

Benedict. He won 2 sets while i only won 1, hahah lol who cares.

Met Heri after that outside cityvibe and cabbed down to ECP to

cycle. We cycled in the rain from 1pm to 4pm, it was super fun !

Went to the deserted place that i went the other time with Jiaxun.

This time when we went in, we saw dogs. Lmao Benedict and I

threw rocks near the dog cus we wanted to get chased by them.

We didn't got chased by the dog cus it kept running away. So we

all continued our journey to changi beach. Took 196 after that.

Im effing' tired now cus i slept at 3am++ yesterday and woke up

at 9am early in the morning today. So imma sleep early today.

Unsure.

Benedict, Jiaxun, Yingkai, Stacey, Juliana and Jiali came to my house

today for bbq steamboat. We ate from 12:30pm all the way up till'

3pm. Went for bowling @ aloha after that and asked sist to tag along.

Payed $8 for 3 games. Everyone else played except for Jiaxun,

Yingkai and Jiali. LOL but Yingkai and Jiali kept bugging me to let

them play during the 2nd game and i let them play for 3 times. /:

Hahah i won during the 1st and 3rd round. Went lan with Juliana

and sist @ aloha after everyone else went home at 5pm++ :D

I had a great time today, Stacey asked me to organise another one.

LOL. Out to ECP with Jonathan, Benedict and Heri tmrw to cycle. (Y)

A thousand words cannot express.

Been at home all the way till 6.30pm, currently in Juliana's

house now with Yingning too. Going home by 10pm, i can't wait

for steamboat tmrw ! :D Steamboating with Jiaxun, Benedict, Jiali,

Stacey and Juliana. Hope it'll be fun. Sigh, something is bothering

me right now...fuck. I hate it, just wish i could disappear forever.

Cuz right now you're the only thing that's making any sense to me.

Slept around 4am yesterday night, ordered mac for supper. Hmm i

woke up at 1pm+ today. Had my lunch and took a shower, cleaned

my face and brushed my teeth. I changed my blog song ! Nice

ttm. Well time flies, it's already 4:20pm. I guess it's cus i woke up

late. I wanna share with you guys something today, so listen up k.

Last month, my friend's uncle died suddenly after he stopped

breathing. Althought now they don't talk about him anymore but

my friend knows that they still couldn't get over the loss of his

uncle. His uncle was a fine young man who treated all his nieces and

nephews very good. One day when they went to have a dinner,

they ordered a lobster. It was kinda small and looked more like

a crayfish. When my friend looked up to his cousins, they looked

at him too as they know that the last dish that his uncle cooked

was a crayfish. And my friend's uncle cooked crayfish because it

was my friend's favourite. What i want to tell you is to cherish the

people around you before they're gone cus it'll be too late to

regret alr.

P/S: Jiaxun coming over to my house on 7th for steamboat etc ♥

Don't let your dreams be just dreams.

Woke up at 12pm today, im not going out today cus' i need a

break. LOL i'm dead bored now. I can't wait to watch Karate

Kid with Adila and Mas ! (: Sian, i wanna go cycling at ecp !

Cycling at ecp is super fun, hahah. I wanna watch Robinhood,

The Sorcerer's Apprentice and Nanny Mcphee ! Random. /:

I didn't go for training today btw.

I want to be the one by your side through the years.

Woke up at 0945 today, went and prepared myself and headed to
clementi mrt station. Met Jiaxun and Benedict there and trained

to bedok and cabbed down to east coast park. Rented a bike there,

package of 2 free hours for every 1 hr. So total was 3hrs. Cycled for

3 hours, lol ass was super sore and my feet could barely feel the

ground. Cycled super far and we even went to a deserted place to

explore. Bowling after that, Benedict won the 1st game and I won

the 2nd game. Went to arcade for awhile before we took 196.

Sat on the bus for 2hrs and alighted at clementi stadium, played

L4D1 with Benedict. Jiaxun didn't play cus she didn't want to.

Went home at around 8pm, im super tired now. *yawnnnnnn :0

My special little lady, the one who drives me crazy.

Woke up at about 8am today. Jonathan came over to my aunt's house.

He did his homework for a little while only and he got distracted cus'

he saw me using my laptop. Lmao, hehe. We watched bring it on and

avatar. Hmmm had our lunch at clementi's kfc and went to play two

games of bowling. I won for the first game and Jonathan won for the

second game. Left at 6pm and went home, met Arynna and Yingning

at cityvibe @ 8pm. Spent 40mins persuading Yingning to go

karaoke with Arynna and I but we gave up. Slacked at kfc and had a

great time telling jokes and laughing. Cabbed Yingning home cus I

was a gentleman. LOL now at Arynna's house. Wooooot. I can't wait

for the 7th of June ♥ . Im gonna learn to bake cookies tmrw and

going out with Jiaxun this thursday and next monday. Nightz , ((: