This is what dreams are made of.

I feel like i just need to get out from this bustling life i have (again).

I wanna go to somewhere where it's just totally quiet. So that i can

just relax and forget about everything that is bothering me..sigh ):

Skipped recess and stayed back after school with some classmates

getting lectured by Mdm Nurmaiza and cleaning of classrooms

from 2/5 to 2/2 , 2C and 2D. Alex, Cheewee, Alvin, Ernest and I

went to westmall to bought the ingrdients for spaghetti and came

over to my house to have a 'mini party'. LOL they left at 6pm++.

Exam in 3 more days, ah fuck. I haven't even started revising ! /:

At times, i really wish you could take out more time with me for

our time spent together is getting lesser and lesser as each days

goes by...

I dreamed a dream.

Played block catching with alex, eugene, ernest and cheewee opp my

house after school. Played until 4pm+ and they came to my house.

Slacked till' 6pm++ and they left. Accompanied them to the bustop.

I just wish time would slow down. It's just going too fast and i am

afraid of tomorrow(s). I'm so scared, i don't even know how to.....

express myself in words. Dude, i feel that something between us

is missing. Or maybe it was just today ? Sigh, i wish that we can

control time. I wanna go out with you again, like the other time we

went to Orchard to get your phone fixed. Just the both of us, it

was a crazy and fun night ! ( Memories ftw. )

Yesterday once more.

Served detention for 1 hour with alex today after school. Went to

IMM with alex, cheewee and ernest. Had our lunch at mc 'donald

and played catching again. It was fun...we played until 5pm+ and

went to Jurong Library to 'study'. Ernest didn't join us btw as he

gotta be home by 6pm. Slacked at the library with alex and cw

until 6pm+ and took 333 to alex's house bustop (to accompany

him) and took 187 with cheewee.

I'm afraid of losing everyone. I wished i could stop time. I hate

reminiscing because it makes me miss all those times that we

cannot rewind. It's like take today for example, i really enjoyed

every bit of today at IMM but what's left is memories. I wish i

could go back to the time during the June holidays. I was very

happy during that period too. I'm not saying that im not happy

right now but i just miss everything in the past. And because

of that, it teached me to cherish everything. Time is priceless.

So enjoy it before it's over. (Alex, don't fail. Don't go back m's.)

Everything i do i give my heart and soul.

School was fine today, got back my english compo test and scored

25/30. Went to IMM with jeremy and met alex there @ 3pm++.

Had our lunch at Kopitiam and played catching there, was really

fun but tiring too. LOL then headed to LJS for dinner and left at

6pm. Cabbed w Alex and Jeremy after that. Jeremy's currently

at my house...resting. Next week's the start of exam, damn it lah.

Kinda vandalised my history notes cus i was angry at that time.

Sometimes i feel used by this particular friend but i just don't

know why. Jeremy has advised me never to do so much for a

person because for some people, after a long period of time....

they will take you for granted. But i believe that some people,

will treat you like the way you have treated them. But, i have

a problem ; which category does my friend falls into ? The

actions he do sometimes falls on the first category but some

times, it's on the second category so im really confused. I feel

that he doesn't trust me sometimes and i wished he could

and also to treat me fairly. Like how i've treated him. He is

an awesome friend to me and i really trust him. Hey friend,

you've gotta learn to trust me and stop being self-centered.

I always give you the best. But do you even try to give it to

me too ? Man, i stole money for you, shared money with

you and even spent so much on your birthday presents...

Does it mean anything at all to you ? What i want to say is

that i'd do anything for/with you but the question that im

gonna ask is...will you do anything for/with me too ? /:

Dude, as i've said, you gotta learn to trust me ! And treat

me like how you want to be treated. I always give you the

best. I wait for you sometimes and don't complain but

how about you ? I seriously don't get why you're like this.

I'm a human too, i've got feelings just like everyone else.

And btw, when you said "Not everyone else is as good as

you." It really hit me straight in the heart okay. When you

said that, i was on the verge of tears. It's like all those

times we spent together is just nothing to you. And it's

like i could feel myself breaking into pieces. I felt that it was

the end of the world for me, believe it or not. See how much

you mean to me now ? I wished you could see yourself

through my eyes then you'd know. I'll always be there

for you and i hope you do the same too but if you're not

interested then please tell me alright.....sigh. Lastly.... ,

I hope that this friendship is real and that you're not just

using me. We had fun times together and i want it to last.

Think about what i've said, seriously.

(maybe im being paranoid but still, i need your assurance)

ACTION.SPEAKS.LOUDER.THAN.WORDS.

so show me that you'll be there when i need you.

It's like a dream, no end and no beginning.

Friday 24/09/10, went to bukit timah lan with alex, jeremy, eugene,

cheewee and ernest. Went to westmall's arcade until 6pm++ with

alex and ernest. Then we met alvin at lot 1 and went to the arcade

at 7pm+ if im not mistaken. Played all the way till 12 midnight. (Y)

Then we stayed-over at alvin's house. We slept at 3am+ heh. :-)

Saturday 25/09/10, woke up at around 12pm+ and went to have

our lunch at a coffee shop nearby with alex, alvin, ernest, alvin's

mom, grandma and maid. Then went back to alvin's house and we

played hide-n-seek. Went to a basketball court somewhere near

alvin's house and played basketball, volleyball and soccer. Ernest

left after that while alex, alvin and i went back to alvin's house.

Initially, alex wanted to go back alvin's house just to take a bath

and leave but then he felt like staying over for another day so i

accompanied him. LOL we studied till 12am+ and went to sleep.

Sunday 26/09/10, woke up at 11am+ and headed to westmall w

alex, alvin and alvin's mom. Had lunch at Mayim, the food there

was simply divine. Lol, enjoyed the food there man. Went home

and bathe then met alex, grace and peiqi at yuhua mac. Was

supposed to study but i guess they got distracted by the J-14

magazine. Left the place at 5pm w alex and met benedict at

the Jurong Polyclinic bustop. Played lan for 2.5 hours and went

home.

Sigh, i could really use a wish right now. If i was granted 1 wish...

i wish that everyone (including myself) could be happy everyday.

But maybe it's impossible. Well what i really want is that..(im not

gonna tell but if you want to know ask me. I might tell you.)

"Not everyone is as good as you." (I will never forget this sentence

because it hurt my feelings. ) I wished you could treat me more

like a real brother man.

and all you do was let me down.

Slacked with eugene around westmall from 2pm until 4.30pm then

went home. Cheewee came over to my house at about 6pm and we

left at 7pm. I took 189 to meet alex at clementi bus interchange &

headed to yuhua mac. Met jeremy there and had our dinner, then

we went to the playground behind mac. Met Jiali, Jiawei and her

younger brother. Played with fires and stuff then kena scolded by

policeman. So we decided to go to this open area beside Jiali's house

to continue playing w fire. Went home, fucked up..pissed. Ccb

I don't even know how i should feel right now. You said you'd

accompany me to the bustop but in the end you crossed the

damn road with Jiawei and Jeremy. And when i was talking

to you halfway you just turned your back on me & didn't look back

when i was talking to you. I was angry and sad so i just walked

back to the bustop. You could've at least crossed back to my

side and say sorry or accompanied me to the bustop in front

right ? What. Very late hor, no time to entertain me. Walking

same direction right ? Give what lanjiao excuse sial, knn want

walk with Jiawei then say lah. Jiaowei so much. My fault la.

Only know how to pangseh people, knn. Fooling me iszit ? What

brother sia. Brother like this ah. Sacrifice few mintues will

die like that. No, you will die. Cuz you'd rather walk w Jiawei.

I'm nothing to you afterall mah, fuck everyone. Fucktard.

What the fuck is this you tell me. Nvm, im too tired alr.

quiker than the rays of light

LOL school was fine today, as usual. Nothing much to write bout' it.

Went to westmall koufu for lunch with alex, cheewee and eugene at

2pm. Was laughing among ourselves cus of some jokes. Happened

to saw stacey, yanjun and kaingee over there too by chance. Then

we decided to study together at the library. Studied till 4pm and

headed to shop-n-save to buy the ingredients for home econs. /:

Well, alex and i haven't really decided on what to cook yet but most

probably it'll be sushi and sphagetti that we're gonna prepare. :)

Alex and cheewee came over my house to blackshot after that !

Cheewee left at 6pm+ while alex stayed till about 9pm before we

went to shop-n-save to buy the seaweed (?) for the sushi. Then

something scary happened, we saw this looney middle aged guy

hanging around westmall entrance and he kept looking at alex. I

looked at him and continued walking and he was actually following

us. We were like wtf that's freaking me out. So we ran all the way

to a bustop that was near my house. Waited for alex's bus to

arrive before i left. Going over to alex's house tml to try prepare

the sushi and see how it goes. :) Alright, nights to all readers ! :D

i'll take you there.

Woke up at 10am today. Met alex and benedict at the lan near alex's

house. Played till bout' 4pm and had lunch at a coffee shop near by.

Continued playing lan after that until 6pm+ and took bus 99 home.

I've always wondered who created this universe and how that person

suddenly popped out from no where. Lol i guess i'll never have it

figured out. Life's a mystery....somehow i guess. Whatever, bye ! :)

Changed my blog song, hope you guys likes it ! :D
Posts will be longer after EOYs but goodbye for now.

walk beside me and be my friend.

DUDE,
SORRY I GET MAD AT YOU EVERYTIME.
I just feel that you're too precious to me...
Well i know it sounds kinda gay but it's from
the bottom of my heart. We had fun times
and i want that to last. I hope you'll under-
stand. Sometimes i get upset because it
seems that you've left me behind, but i think
it's just me being paranoid as usual. I'll
change my temper. You're a big part of my
life. I know, that sometimes you just hate
me (?) I never hated you since the time we
were back to being friends. But if you don't
like me, you can just tell me. Seriously. :)
Have you read the booklet i gave you ? 0_0
Alright that's all i have to say.

lover of my soul.

I love this picture alot, it gives me a warm and cosy feeling. Feel very

comfortable, hahah. :D Well lessons were fine today, today's lifeskill

lesson was awesome. It inspired me alot, seriously. Alex and i ate in

the canteen while waiting for eugene to be dismissed. Eugene came

at 2pm and we took 333 to jurong library. We didn't really studied,

we were kinda more like slacking. Hahah, left at 4pm+ and took bus

home. I'm so tired today so im gonna sleep by 9pm ! Gonna bathe

soon, im hot and sticky right now... :X Argh 2 weeks++ to EOYs. D:

68)You get experience when you don't get what you want. I agree w/

this quote. I've learned something about life today and i am pretty

satisfied with myself. :)

Use things, love people and not love things, use people. ^__^

its time i let you go.

Had a fun time with alex yesterday, watched cats and dogs with alex

and benedict at westmall @ 1.40pm. Show ended at 3pm++ and went

to Koufu for lunch. Took 106 to orchard with alex, went to wisma to

get alex's phone fixed then went to cineleisure arcade till 7pm+ and

to Scape's arcade. Left at 9pm++ and went to lot 1. Played arcade and

left at 12midnight. Headed to macdoanld for supper, went to lan @

cck after that till 4am++. Cabbed to my house and let alex use my

lappy to play blackshot. I slept at 7am in the morning while he slept

at 10am in the morning. Woke up at around 4pm and continued to

blackshot till 8pm+ and accompanied alex to clementi bus inter. Well

tmrw's the start of a new term and EOY is around the corner so to

everyone out there, all the best in your studies and EOY ! Jiayou. :D

I have been going out with alex for the whole of this 1 week hols. Hm

must have fun mah, after that needa mug hard for exams alr. Hehe.

This 1 week hols was very enjoyable to me, i had alot of fun w alex

and some others. I'm tired, shall go and sleep now ! Btw, i won't be

able to blog that often anymore cus of EOY. Alright, nights. :DDDD

i'd like to believe that planet earth turns slowly.

Yesterday, met alex and eugene at city vibe @ around 2pm++. Lan for

1.5 hours. Alex came to my house after that, played blackshot w him

for a little while and he played dotA with my cousin. Then blackshot w

alex until 4am+ in the morning, he fell asleep at 4am++, played bs for

a little while more before i went to sleep too. We woke up at around 11

in the morning. Had breakfast that my aunt had prepared and bs till

about 7pm+. Went to cityvibe lan w alex for 1.5hours and had our

dinner at LJS after that. Otw to clementi bus interchange, played w

alex. LOL threw ice at each other and i had a fun time trying to dodge.

Hahah, alex's going malaysia tmrw. Aiyo, can't go out w him already.

Sadded, lol. Alright, i shall go get some sleep now. Very very tired ! D:

Once bitten twice shy.

I’m afraid to ever get close to anyone because I have a fear

that one day we’ll fight and they’ll tell everyone my secrets,

or use them against me. I hate being vulnerable, so I always

put on a tough exterior but deep down I just want to know

that there’s someone there for me that’ll listen to what I say

in confidence and keep it just between us, but I know there’s

no one like that in my life now, and I don’t think I’ll be able

to find that person in the future. These trust insecurities

just get in the way and prevent me from ever really trying.

Is there a true friend at all ?

Tell me.

This feeling's taking control of me.

Sorry there aren't any pictures today, there's some problems with

my internet connection i think. Woke up around 11am today then

met alex and took 157 to bukit timah irc, reached around 2.40pm

and played pool with alex, minjie and ernest. Ks and mingui were

there too, playing at another table with ks's friends. Left the place

at around 4pm++ and had our lunch at mac donald, then 945 to

lot 1 to catch Grown Ups. Yeah....2nd time watching it for alex &

I, movie ended at about 9pm. Went to the arcade awhile and left.

Took 188 with alex, reached home at 11pm+, had supper and

took a bath. Alex might be coming over tmrw for our home econ

project. Damn it i hate projects lol but hope i'll have fun cooking

with him. Heheh, i wanna have some chocolate chip cookiessssss.

Well good morning readers ! It's a brand new day today, hope everything

turns out good for me and all of you guys as well ok ? :-) Heh, met bro at

9pm at the lan near his house. Played till 11pm+ and had bought supper

from 7-11. Ate and slacked till 12mn and bused home. Watching movie w

bro, eugene and jianjie later on at westmall. Hope it'd be fun ! Alright, i

should get some sleep now. And those of you who are stalking my blog nw

too. Lollllll joking ! Btw before i end this post, HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY

JERELYN TAY ! HEHE. Okay that's all, good night everybody, yawns.

the rest is still unwritten

I hate it when give me 1 word replies. LOL and sometimes it pisses me

when people just send me a 'K.' And try to give me smiley faces when

any of you is texting me please ! Or i will think that you are giving me

an attitde or something. Thanks ! :D Well okay, woke up around 10am

today. Im going mad soon, staying at home the whole day. Might be

going lan with alex, cheewee and benedict later. But not comfirmed yet.

don't come to me only when no one else is free. well i mean nth

to you i guess. afterall im just an atm to you. everyone wants to feel

appreciated sometimes. a little care and concern would be nice y'know

at least jianjie doesn't mind if im just going out with him alone. its still fun

to him. unlike you...going out with more people doesn't mean that it'd

be more fun. sometimes just the both of us going out can be equally

fun too. unless you're trying to sy that im a very boring person. well then,

im sorry for being a boring person to you.what do you want me to say.

i feel being used. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

wanna spend the entire lifetime with you

Watched Haunted Changi with alex and koksiang @ 5.40pm yesterday.

The show was kinda boring but some parts were scary. Alex came to my

house after that. Left home at about 11pm+ and cabbed over to ks's

house and then to bukit timah beauty world. Played pool all the way till

5am+. LOL but we played lan for an hour from 12am to 1am. Had our

breakfast at mac donald and we took cab to my house. We all slept till

about 12pm+ and accompanied alex and koksiang to the bus interchange

and to wait for ks's cab. I'm bored now, sigh and im broke...boo hoo ~

Why do i feel so empty whenever you're gone. I don't even know what

you did to me that make me so....obsessed with you. I miss you man.

You were **** just awhile ago but now i miss you alr. Why the fuck is

this happening to me. D: feel so empty without you, come out now :(

take it to the dance floor

Last day of school for this term, woots. Went to bukit timah lan

w alex, eugene and jonathan chang today. Played bs for about
2.5 hours. Benedict came and played bs with us for 1 hour cus

he came late. Went to a place that sells chicken rice to eat, and

went home. Meeting alex and benedict later to watch The Hole

(3D) @ 9.45pm so i'll be reaching westmall at around 8.30pm.

Alright shall update when i get back. HEHE dont miss me k ! :)

lets run this town.

HAHAHAH LOL sorry to all Taylor Lautner fans out there but this is

really funny ! :D Woke up at 4am today, bathed and cabbed to yuhua

macdonald at around 5.30am and reached by 5:45am. Met alex there

and had breakfast together. Left at 6.30am and went to school to do

some last minute revision for the math test. The test was kinda easy.

Ms Loh said i passed ! Hehe cus i saw her @ westmall today so i asked

her. Alex passed too, grats bro. Went to bukit timah lan after school w

alex, cheewee, ernest, jeremy, wengmeng and shaolun. Played bs for

2.5 hours, left at about 5pm and went to mac for lunch. Took 157 with

alex and jeremy, alighted near westmall with jeremy and that was

where i saw Ms Loh. Took 189 with jeremy to clementi to have a hair

cut. Ok my hair cut was totally screwed. Thanks to some asshole, hah.

Movie tmrw with alex and some others, that's all bye peoples. (-: