You don't know what's it like to be like me.

Sometimes you just sit at home and remember the old times. You laugh by yourself with a ridiculous smile. Then you have that one tear stream down your face, because all of it changed.
You were the person I thought who would never abandon me, the person I thought who would always be there for me. You were the person I thought who would never lie to me. Why did you? You really got me going, my heart sank. No words could explain how I felt...but I know, I know it's okay for you. Don't I matter ?

It's the last day of 2010, hope next year would be a better year for everyone. I'm going out with Alex, Cheewee and Alvin today. Sorry for the lack of updates, I will blog soon.

You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

Love me for a reason, let the reason be love.

Hello aliens. :) Nah, just kidding. Didn't post yesterday because as usual, I cooped myself up at home. No wait, I didn't cooped myself up...no one asked me out that's why. LOL saddening right! Well anyway, I'm posting today because it's Christmas Eve ! :D How many of you are excited ? Actually it doesn't feels like Christmas Eve to me, I don't know why either. Maybe because there's no snow ? Lmao. Well but I'm still excited because my cousin said whoever can drink the most cans of coke/beer gets $50 from him. My sister and I have to drink as many cans of coke while my cousin has to drink as many cans of beer. :3 Hahah obviously he would lose right? Hooray! I'm kinda hungry now and I also feel like getting Starbucks' Caramel! Anyone ? :) It's Christmas Eve today and I'm not gonna spend my day at home in front of the laptop, no way. So I'll check to see who's free so that we can chill, know what I'm saying ? Yeah...hahaha. Everyone in the house is sound asleep except me. Guess cus' I slept the earliest yesterday which was around 11pm. I woke up 2 hours ago fyi. I can't wait to celebrate Christmas I think, having dinner with my whole family so all's good for me. :) Oh anyway, did you guys saw google's homepage ? :) It's nice, click HERE to check it out ;) Alright, I'mma post again tmrw and hopefully upload some photos. So long suckers readers ! :3

I have a dream, a song to sing.

I remembered I wanted to be an astronaut last time because the outer space just amazes me and the floating around sounds so cool. It looks really awesome with all the stars in space! I love to stargaze because I would feel so relaxed. But sadly, Singapore is an urban city so there isn't much stars to gaze at. T_T Well I don't want to become an astronaut already since NASA provides services to bring us to the outer space, like a tour. Provided you're rich enough to pay for that! I heard it's kinda expensive though. And being an astronaut ain't that easy plus it's tough work too! Talking about astronauts, I suddenly feel like buying astronaut's ice cream. :D The other time when Juliana and I went to buy it, the shop was already closed -_-

So yeah, hmmm I wanted to travel all around the world since young. Traveling sounds so adventurous and fun, don't you think so too ? :) Same thing, provided if you have the money! Conclusion, study hard, find a good job, earn lotsa money and you'll be able to do and buy the things you like! Oh and you'll be able to take care of your parents. :3 Money isn't everything though, since it can't buy happiness and yeah...you get my meaning right ? :)

Cus I've got swagger.

I don't know what to post because I've been at home the whole day. I'm bored and the internet connection is being a bitch like any other day! Woooo, it's raining now. :) I really want to play around in the rain. I don't know what else to say to make this post longer and exciting already. /:

I'm so sorry! I'll post again soon alright so stay tune. ;)

You and Me together through the days and nights.

Woke up at 3:30pm in the afternoon by Alex's spam calls. LOL used the laptop for a little while and went to bathe and prepared. Reached westmall at about 4:30pm and bought 2 movie tickets for Skyline at 5pm since Alex have not reached yet, movie tickets were $6 btw. Alex reached at about 4:50pm and we went in to the theatre. The show lasted for 1.5 hours, I'd say it wasn't that bad though. Compared to Haunted Changi, The Hole, King Of Fighters which sucks BIG time.

Headed for dinner at Koufu and bought 2 sabah fish set meal with chickens and an extra bowl of rice at the korean food stall. :) Then, decided to go to the arcade. Top-up $14 to the timezone card i think. Went home after playing. Yeah I sure had fun but im sooooooo tired ! D: I have puffy eyes you know ?!?! ;_; School's starting in 2 weeks time, who's excited ? I'm not. But, I've decided that I won't slack like how I did in Sec 2 ! When i was in Sec 2, I don't do much revisions and I wasn't really committed to my studies. So I've decided that when I'm in Sec 3 I'mma study hard and play hard at the same time. As the saying goes, 'All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy'. ;) LOL. Well not forgetting Christmas, which is in 5 more days ! This the season to be jolly, fa la la la la la la la. I hope it'll snow in Singapore on christmas although it's highly impossible but who cares, I have a great imagination. :D

Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown ?

Northern lights, isn't it cool. Nature's beautiful and awesome, so for those who doesn't appreciate mother nature....well you can jolly well go and die. LOL nah I'm just joking ! I'm not that mean and besides, everyone is entitled to their own opinion so yeah. I really wanna see the northern lights so badly though. /:

Yesterday, went to IMM with Juliana and met Yingning and Arynna to celebrate Yingning's birthday. Had our dinner at Secret Recipe and ordered a sliced cake for Yingning but the 4 of us shared the cake. :) Hope Yingning liked it. Cab to Ion with Yingning after that to exchange her Armani Exchange wallet for something else because Yingning's boyfriend bought her the same wallet as Yingning bought. If I'm not mistaken, the wallet cost $96. Went to basemet with Yingning after that for supper and took a bus home. Meeting Alex later at 3pm. I'm kinda tired so I'm gonna sleep soon. :) School's starting in 2 weeks time. Sigh, I think I should go through all my textbooks before school starts so I can understand what the teacher's teaching and not be like 'what the fuck is this teacher talking about'. I'm such a good kid ain't I ? Say yes or I'll kill you. Wtf, okay that's lame. -_-

Wide awake and i can see the perfect sky is torn.

How is everyone out there, hope you all are doing fine. I'm alright, still living. (:

Maybe going to UK isn't a bad thing afterall.... I can forget about the things that

made me sad and to start afresh. I wish i could go now, i don't want to wait for

a few more years. Sorry that I'm not really active anymore. Do drop a tag tho.

Cuz I'll be making papers like you wouldn't believe.

I'm so awesome even HE^ is afraid of me. LOL nah I'm just being lame. I've created tumblr and have been tumblr-ing (if there ever was this word) for hours till now. Do visit my T U M B L E R and follow me if you have a tumblr ! :D I'll definately follow you too. Actually i've created tumblr a few months ago but i didn't do anything with it until now. For those who does not have tumblr, well i reccomend you to create a tumblr. It's awesome, really. Try it ! *gives the innocent face*

Well anway, in a couple of weeks years time…I’d most probably be going to UK to study. On one hand, I’m very happy but on the other hand, I’m sad because if I’m going UK to study, it would means that I’ll be leaving all my friends behind to a foreign country :( I’ll definately miss all my friends, especially my brother, my besties and Jiawei. Oh, which reminds me ! I asked Jiawei whether she would want to go with me to UK to study and she said see how, though maybe most probably i guess that she would not be going with me to the UK to study I still have that little hope in me that maybe, just maybe her parents would allow her to go study in the UK. That’d be so fucking awesome. Not forgetting my brother too, it’d be great too if he can study with me in the UK. Jeez, I’ve told Ernest about my mum’s plan to bring me to the UK to study and he was like “Can you not go ?” I honestly did not expect him to say that, really ! Aw, I’m touched. ;) LOL. I wonder how is it like studying in the UK ;_; Oh btw, I'm mad hungry now. My stomach keeps on growling, poor tummy. Hang in there, i love you xx

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight ♥

Sorry i haven't been posting for like a couple of days already, nothing much

was happening in my life so i had nothing to post about so yeah. Went out w

alex at 7pm+ yesterday at cityvibe, bought tako and played lan for 2 hrs. :)

I didn't played blackshot, i was just on youtube listening to Cher's audition

and One Direction's too. :) They're both awesome ttm. Did i mentioned that

i really love to sing ? :D I do. It makes me happy ! Went to bought KOI

after lan and went home. Thanks brother, for helping me pay. :P Hm, im

kinda excited because i might go UK to study in a few years time. Weee,

my mom just told me. She said she'll call my auntie in the UK and ask her

to check for schools. Yeah but first, i gotta study hard here right ? Right.

LOL did i just talked to myself ? Oh well. /: I'mma go jogging with YN @

9pm later on. (YN=YINGNING. ) Eating subway's double meat now,

sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. It's awesome, y'all should go try it some day. :)

Ciao for now ;)

You can't tell me nothing.

It isn't fair how i always keep to my promises when you keep breaking yours

time after time.You're selfish, you only think about yourself. What about me,

have you ever considered how i would feel ? I really tried, guess im done alr.

Spend the whole day at home using the laptop. What to do ? Someone bomb

me. I'm going for my work tmrw @ 9am not looking forward to it. Short post

today, so sorry. I've got no mood to post, my blood is boiling nbccb _|_

If you be hating just be mad at yourself.

Woke up at 10am+ today, walked to nanhua bustop with arynna and accompanied

her to wait for 188. I went home after that and had my one hour nap. (: Shiokk.

Woke up 4pm, bathed and prepared and trained to lot 1 to meet arynna and ryan.

Walked around, ate at mos burger and yuanlong joined us too. Continued walking

around and then we slacked outside mac. We decided to go to the toilet and thats

when arynna got angry with us (i guess) and she went home. T_T We spam called

her, combed the place but to no avail so ryan and i decided to go to her house to

apologize but she wouldn't come out of her house. Marc was with us too and he

was the one who called arynna. I think arynna guessed that he was together with

ryan and i so she didn't want to come out. Oh well, SORRY ARYNNA LEE. We

didn't mean it, really. Went home afterwards and reached home at 11pm+. The

fact that we went all the way from lot 1 to your house to apologize means we're

very sincere about it ! Please be touched. Kinda tired and im meeting alex tmr,

hope he rmbrs though if not i'll kill him, crush him, burn him, eat him. -_-

Why don't you go fuck yourself and die bitch.

So if someone right now doesn't give a fuck about you, let it be. There'll

eventually be people who will care for you and give you all the love you

need. Each and everyone of you is beautiful in your own way so you do

not have to try so hard to please people. You live life for yourself, you

don't live for the sake of others. Live for yourself because when you are

sad, people does not care so might as well just be happy and don't think

so much. If people don't know how to treat you right, let go of them.

You must remember that you deserve more than all this shit you're

going through. Sometimes, i really wanna kick and punch those people

that doesn't give a damn but oh well, i wouldn't want to dirty my hands.

Woke up at 10am+ today and met Juliana at cityvibe @ 1:30pm.

Headed for KOI and bought ice-cream milk tea and passion fruit tea.

Waited for like 45minutes, ah so longggg. Bought takoyaki while

waiting too, yumz. Then went to mac and slacked, Shuhui came at

3:10pm. Headed to a playground nearby and chatted for awhile

before we took 154 to Juliana's house. Then, sharlene reached jul's

house at around 5pm and we decided to have our dinner at KFC.

Arynna came and joined us too. After that, jul+shuhui+sharlene

went back to jul's house while i walked around central with arynna.

Bought my black shoes cuz im gonna work at mac soon too, hehe.

I'm at arynna's house now, she's gonna work tmrw and i'll be

working on sunday. FML lol ahhhh karma sia, dang. T______T

You used to be my best friend. You’ll try to keep it that way. But I won’t, not

anymore. I tried too hard to salvage our friendship, even when you were the

one that neglected it. Now that I’m the one letting go, it hurts me too see that

our friendship means so little to you now, but you’re selfish enough that you’ll

pretend everything’s normal. I feel as though I don't know you.

Not all scars show and not all wounds heal.

I have so much to say but remembring that you didn't give a fuck about

anything i say, i just kept it this short. You don't understand, didn't even

ask why and you started scolding me. Call yourself a brother indeed.

It was awesome but we lost it.

I'm finally back home and right now, i'm trying my best not to close my eyes.

Slept at 2am+ and woke up at 9am in the morning. Took a shower and double

check whether i've left out on anything. Met stacey, benedict, jasmine & jiali.c

at jurong mrt station and headed to harbour front. Then we took the bus to

sentosa and walked to siloso beach. We only played volleyball for like a few

minutes and we decided to have a dip in the shallow end. I don't know about

the rest but i sure had fun, it was damn hilarious when we started throwing

sand and each other. When i tried to dogde the sand that jiali threw, the sand

hit my arse. LOL, hahah funny max. Went to took a shower at about 3pm+

and went for steamboat buffet @ vivo. Love the steamboat buffet, had fun

eating and laughing too. The total price per person was $17.90 and we left at

7.30pm. Went down to Level 1 and bought chocolate from awfullychocolate.

Well we all bought the same thing, and the 4 of them decided to give it to

their parents. Filial sia, hahaha. :) Jasmine took the train home, I took 166

and bendict, jiali and stacey took 188 home. IM TIRED TO THE MAXXX.

We'll build this on a solid ground.

I actually spend the whole day using the laptop, surfing the net. Wtf, no life.

LOL well but there was nothing else left for me to do, watching the tv sucks.

Singapore channels are kinda boring. But, i am gonna say no to being a no

lifer tmr ! Because i am going sentosa with Stacey, Benedict, Jasmine and

Jiali.C for volleyball. Been a long time since i've last touched a volleyball, so

i can't wait for tml, gotta reach jurong mrt by 11:10am, according to stacey.

#When i grow up, i wanna travel all around the world with you. ♥

Doesn't it sucks ? When you're sad being without someone and yet they're

doing perfectly fine without you. Nevermind, i don't wanna be so emo alr.

People change and stuffs yeah i know. I got over it already, hah! Fuck you.

The sun rays covered in grey.

I'm sincerely sorry for not posting yesterday, i was too sick and sleepy to do

anything. I'm not sick already but i'm still having sore throat and it's effing' pain

man D: Yesterday, spend the afternoon watching movie with Ernest and went

to tradehub to meet Jiawei and Yixin. Then went home and played cards with

sister, ernest, aaron and daphne. We even played blindmice, hahaha but i kinda

suck at playing blindmice cuz i'll keep laughing looking at how the blindmice tries

so hard to catch anyone. LOL then headed to the badminton court and played

badminton @ 6pm+. Went home at 8pm+ with ernest and sist, had my dinner

and went to sleep. (: Ernest went to the lan at paya lebar after dinner and is

gonna play till later 5pm, i think he's sucha douche -_-

Jump then headfirst fearless.

FML i'm sickkkkk. D: Guess the culprits were the chocolates i had yesterday

and the weather ! Screw you both LOL. Went to cineleisure with Arynna ytd

and we bought our bags at newurbanmale. The bag costs like $100+ wtffffff.

Had lunch at wisma and trained to lot 1 with Arynna to meet her friends .__.

I found out Reirey was actually Marc, fark you ! HAHAH kinda embaressed.

Cheyyy, i'll get my sweet revenge though. So let's list down arynna's friends.

Those that we went out with at lot 1: Marc, Ryan, Bryan, Sherman, Weaven

and Clayton. They had their dinner at KFC while Arynna and I headed to the

arcade to play PIU. Been a long time since we both played that tgt alr. Aww.

After that Arynna's friend came to find us and we literally slacked for 2hr+.

Bus with Arynna, Marc and Bryan and went to Arynna's house. (Bryan went

home.) Marc left at 1am and then i went to sleep. Woke up at 12pm+ and

was sick alr. Marc came at 1pm+ and left at 4pm+, i left awhile after he left

since Arynna wanted to sleep.

Just so you know, i've never stopped loving you. You mean the world to me.

Can't believe that i was fooled again.

HAHAHAH LOL. I slept 8:50pm yesterday, had another interesting dream.

But i kinda forget what it was about, happens most of the time. -_- Oh well.

It's raining now and it's damn windy and cold, i love it. I really wanna play in

the rain, anyone care to join ? :) I don't know if im still going Thailand again.

But i might want to go since Arynan and Yingning want to tag along too ! I'm

gonna call to ask my mom later. I'm kinda bored so im listening to musics. :)

Guess im meeting Alex later at about 12pm to pass him his food and should

be going home after that or going to clementi central for KOI with yingning.

OH FUCK. I suddenly remembered....i don't think i can go thailand. :( FML..

Because im working soon ? Oh no........wtf. And wonder when the manager's

gonna call me. /: Nevermind. I might post again later so stay tunezzzzzzzzz.

Flooded with all the pain, knowing that i'll never hold you.

I've wasted so many words on you.

Man am i tired right now, feels like sleeping already ! /: Yesterday, went out

with Juliana, Shuhui and Sharlene to Clementi Central at 3pm+. Bought KOI

and went to mac donald to slack since it was raining. Then we decided to go

try out the Mac at IMM to apply for a job. So yeah, we've got the job already.

Just have to wait for the call to confirm with us which mac we are gonna

work at. Met junyang and went back home together. Left the house @ 8pm

and met Don at my void deck. Took cab to boonlay market, had dinner and

went to the lan. Played till 5:30am in the morning and cabbed to my house.

Don asked me to cook maggie for him, end up when i finished cooking the

maggie for him, he fell asleep. T__T oh well, so i ate it myself instead. LOL.

Junyang was the last to sleep. And btw, i had a really weird dream but i

cant really remember what it was about. I woke up at 1pm+, the two were

still sleeping. Don woke up at....5pm+ ? Hah. They left my house at 6pm+

and i accompanied Don to the mrt station. Guess im staying at home tmrw.

Sad life. :( IM REALLT TIRED TTM NOW BTW. YAWN.*

If one day i stopped contacting you, will you take the initiative to contact me?

You used to mean alot to me but you didn't care.

Good morning readers, it's 6am in the morning now. (: I was awake at about

4am+ because i slept at 8pm yesterday. And yeah, i went for a haircut ytd...

Not bad i guess, i feel much lighter now that i went for a haircut. HAHAHA.

Christmas is coming...wonder what my mum's gonna get for me ! :D Idw go

back to school man, so tiring. :( Oh well.....no choice. I haven't bought my sch

books and uniform for next year. *PANICS* LOL and yeah, im super bored.

Think i'mma ask guoqiang out soon. (: YAY. Sigh...........i feel sad and i don't

even know why. Wtf is this man. Nevermind /: FML.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up, now they're gone

and you wished you could give them everything. (N)

I am so emo at home, can't stop thinking about the past. Which makes

me really really sad. :( I need a huggggggggggggggggg. I wanna talk to

anyone right now. Nevermind...looking at this chio girl's picture makes

my day. :) Hot bodoh, if i got a girlfriend this chio i sure happy ttm. :D

Which guy wouldn't ? xD Just look at her eyes...and her hair..perfect.

LOL hahah ok Jed, stop it. I guess i'm getting more depressed, trying to

make myself happy. :( Im so pathetic, sigh. Anyone wanna chatttttz ?

And everything came rushing back. ):

Had breakfast at 7am+ in the morning with aunt and went back to sleep.

Woke up at 12pm+, i'm so bored now. I guess arynna's right, using comp

all the time is like having no life at all. I'm not living my life to the fullest.

I really don't wanna waste my holidays either going to lan or staying at

home doing nothing... It's kind off torturing staying at home, i might get

depression anytime. Someone please come talk to me or visit me......... :(

But you didn't care, you shoved me away.

It's 1st of December already, time flies. /: In about 1 more month, we're

going back to school again. Well, it's 4:43am now and i can't go to sleep.

Tues(30/11), Watched some movies at home with ernest in the morning.

Ernest left at 3pm+, bored ttm. I went back to sleep at 5pm+ and woke

up at 1am, that explains why i'm not able to go back to sleep. :) Im super

hungry now but there's no food for me to eat. Sad life. So yeah, a month

has passed. I just wish i'll be happy this month, every month, everytime.

:)